Before his life came to an end, Robin Williams gave his wife a wonderful weekend, doing all the things they love together. It was the second weekend of August in 2014 and Susan Schneider Williams was starting to believe that the “terrorist” inside her husband’s brain was calming down. Even though her experience was extremely “personal” and “heartbreaking”, Robin Williams’ opened up about his death so that it could help make a difference to the many people, suffering from the same condition that her husband was battling.
“As you may know, my husband Robin Williams had the little-known but deadly Lewy body disease (LBD),” she wrote for Neurology. “He died from suicide in 2014 at the end of an intense, confusing, and relatively swift persecution at the hand of this disease’s symptoms and pathology.”
Susan revealed that her husband’s death came out of nowhere because she was just starting to see a difference in him.
“As the second weekend in August approached, it seemed his delusional looping was calming down,” she wrote. “Maybe the switch in medications was working. We did all the things we love on Saturday day and into the evening, it was perfect—like one long date. By the end of Sunday, I was feeling that he was getting better.”
Before they went off to sleep that night, Robin Williams told his wife his final words to her, which she could still hear long after his death.
Susan Schneider Williams wrote, “When we retired for sleep, in our customary way, my husband said to me, ‘Goodnight, my love,’ and waited for my familiar reply: ‘Goodnight, my love.’ His words still echo through my heart today. Monday, August 11, Robin was gone.”
His star-studded life, ridden with as many ups as it had downs, ended early at the age of 63.
“This morning, I lost my husband and my best friend, while the world lost one of its most beloved artists and beautiful human beings. I am utterly heartbroken,” Susan Schneider Williams shared in a statement, covered by RadarOnline.com. “On behalf of Robin’s family, we are asking for privacy during our time of profound grief. As he is remembered, it is our hope the focus will not be on Robin’s death, but on the countless moments of joy and laughter he gave to millions.”
It was a struggle for her to get through even normal everyday things without him. She wrote, “After Robin left, time has never functioned the same for me. My search for meaning has replicated like an inescapable spring throughout nearly every aspect of my world, including the most mundane.”
When she spoke with ABC News‘ Amy Robach, she was asked if time helped with the pain, and she replied, “[The pain] … just all of it will never go. It’s the best love I ever dreamed of.”
Days before his death, Robin Williams put up his final post on Instagram dedicated to his daughter, Zelda Rae Williams, as reported by WGN-TV. He wrote, “…Happy Birthday to Ms. Zelda Rae Williams! Quarter of a century old today but always my baby girl. Happy Birthday @zeldawilliams Love you!”
When his daughter spoke about his death on NBC’s Today Show, BBC reported her saying, “We don’t have an explanation. There’s no point questioning it… blaming yourself or the world. It happened.”
She also added, “Anybody who has ever lost anyone works very hard to continue that memory in a positive way.” His absence is not only felt by his loved ones, but also thousands of people who laughed along with him.
“A lot of people feel his absence,” said his daughter. “The side of him that people know and love… is the characters that he had so much fun being,” Zelda said. “I do think that’s what a lot of people will hold on to. That’s not going anywhere. They knew a dad that he was proud of them knowing. Laughter was incredibly important to him.”