“There were times when I would look up to God and I’d go, ‘Why is this happening to me?'” Whitney Houston can be seen saying in the trailer of the documentary, Whitney.
For a while, tabloids and magazines could only talk about her vocal range and her captivating voice when they covered Whitney Houston. But eventually, the headlines started focusing on her personal life and gossip. To be felt like people were judging her was one of the biggest burdens she carried during her final days.
“We look at celebrities like they’re immortals and they’re not. And the expectation that she’s supposed to be this perfect person, that’s a lot of pressure for one to have to deal with,” Pat Houston, her sister-in-law told Today. “It was a burden. A few days before she passed that’s what she talked about. ‘Why do people judge me?'”
A record executive who worked with the singer for years spoke about her struggles with her public image and said, according to People, “She was in pain from living almost a double life. She wanted to be down with her community. That’s who she really was. But because of her career, she also had to portray this pure pop princess in gorgeous gowns, singing songs the white community adored.”
It was reported that in one of her final interviews, the 6-time Grammy Award winner shared that she was finally comfortable with life, according to The Sun. During her finals days, she would quote verses from the Bible and just over a day before her death, she told a friend, “I’m gonna go see Jesus. I want to see Jesus.”
Hours before her death, it was reported that she said, “You know, he’s so cool. I really want to see that Jesus.”
On Saturday, February 11, 2012, Whitney Houston was supposed to attend Clive Davis’ annual pre-Grammy party at the Beverly Hilton Hotel. But that night, it was destined that she didn’t make it to the party, which was the same event at which she was introduced to the world three decades before, according to ABC News.
Whitney Houston had spoken to her cousin, Dionne Warwick, that Saturday. “I spoke to Whitney the day that she passed,” Dionne Warwick said on Good Morning America.
“She was so up and ready and happy,” Dionne Warwick shared about the last time they spoke. “She had everything in the world to live for. She had a new film that was an absolute dream to make and do. She was getting ready to go back into the studio to record. She was getting her vocals together.”
That day, Whitney Houston also had her very last conversation with her mother at around 3:15 p.m. that Saturday.
It was less than half an hour after the call with her mother that the 48-year-old singer was found in the bathtub of her hotel room, unresponsive. And at 3:55 p.m., February 11, 2012, officials declared that the legend was dead. Right after her death, there was a lot of speculation behind the cause of it. But her ex-husband, Bobby Brown, had only one answer in mind. “I don’t think she died from drugs,” he told Rolling Stone and added, “She was really working hard on herself to try to be a sober person… she was a great woman.”
When asked about what he attributed her death to, he said, “Just being broken-hearted.”
About what happened, Pat Houston said, “Only her and God knows that.”
She went on to say, “I’m at peace because I know she’s at peace. She doesn’t have to deal with all this anymore. And she was given to us for one moment in time. She served her purpose.”