I’m done with putting up with everything you’ve put me through. I’m no longer going to wait by my phone, constantly checking to see if you’ve called or texted. I stopped getting butterflies every time your name popped up on my screen a long time ago. Nothing about you excites me anymore. I don’t feel the urge to hold your hand in public or to let everyone know that you’re mine. I no longer want to show you off in front of my friends.
I’m done with you.
I never thought that things would come to this. I pictured us being together forever. I saw kids, a house with a big garden, family vacations, and dogs that we’d go hiking with in our future one day. No more. I didn’t know back then that the person I loved so much would one day drop the act they’d been keeping up and show me that they were actually someone else entirely.
You made me feel alone. You made me feel miserable. You broke my heart the day you showed your true colors.
I’ve cried. I’ve felt regret, confusion, and hate. I hated you with every inch of my being. But I healed. Gradually, that hate and regret and grief for what I’d lost turned into acceptance. I learnt important lessons from you. I can’t hold a grudge against you for that. You showed me just how horrible people can be while convincing you they’re incredible. You taught me that I can’t ever allow myself to give another person my power.
So, I’m moving on. I’ve accepted that all of my experiences are part of me, good and bad alike.
You’re in the past now. You’re a part of the reason I am who I am today, and for that I’m grateful. You showed me how to be a better person by doing the exact opposite of everything that you should do in a relationship.
I remember how many times you told me you loved me. Sometimes I wonder if you ever meant it, or if it was all a part of the game. But it doesn’t matter now. The important thing is that you had your chance and you lost it, and thank God you did.
I’m feeling better than I have in years. I feel free. I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders, and now I’m going to live my life like I always should have done: independently.
It took you to make me realize just how loved I am by the people that really matter in my life. It took you for me to see just how valuable I am, and how I should never settle for a malicious, narcissistic person when I deserve to be with the love of my life.
It took you for me to learn who I am again.
I don’t hate you. I don’t miss you. I don’t ever want to see you again.