Self-doubt is your biggest enemy. You may not be aware of his presence, but it is always there. Creeping from within you. It is up to you what you’ll choose to do with it.
The more you try to repress it, the bigger and scarier it becomes. And as time passes, it only gets harder to control it. That voice inside of you becomes even more convincing and troubling that eventually you stop trying and you give in. You surrender and let your self-doubt take over.
From that moment on, nothing you do in life seems like it’s good enough. Your inner critic is the one that guides you in life and you are nothing but it’s faithful servant.
“Did I make the right decision?”
“Do these people care for me?”
“Am I good enough?”
These are some of the questions that I’ve been living with most of my life. The reason for my crippling anxiety, my inability to push myself to the limits and succeed in the things that I am passionate about. The reason for my failures and disappointments in life.
Growing up, my inner critic forced me to question many things and give up on many dreams. The first thing that I convinced myself that I am not capable of doing was playing volleyball. The insecurities inside of me combined with the comments others people made about me were enough for my self-doubt to grow bigger. So, I quit.
Time flew, but things stayed the same. Even after I turned 20 and started my first job as a content writer in a marketing office. I’ve always known that I have the gift to express myself through words, but my self-doubt found a way to destroy even that tiniest glimmer of hope in me. The belief that I am not good enough stopped me from reaching my potential. It froze me and made me question myself.