It took me some time to wipe the tears off my cheek, calm my anxious mind, heal my broken heart and let go of my hopes, but I did it. At least, I think I did it.
There was a time when I couldn’t accept anything less than a future beside you. What’s more, I was even willing to fight for it with all of my heart and soul. I was willing to risk it all. But now I see that doing that could have been in vain…
It is clear as a day…
We were never meant for each other.
I know that it took me a lot of time to accept that bitter truth, but I think I am finally there. I am slowly realizing it. And it hurts. I feel like someone has ripped my heart from the chest. But somehow, I am okay with. I know it sounds like I am not in my right mind, but that is how I feel. It hurts me to know that I will never again hold you in my arms, but at the same time, my heart feels relieved. I feel lighter. As if that heavyweight has finally been lifted from me.
You will always be the person that I will write about. My first crush. My biggest love. The man that taught me how to love. The story that I’d love to remind myself of. The one who made a difference in my life. The one who changed my life from the core.
But it is finally time to accept reality as it is.
We don’t belong together. We were never really meant to end up in each other’s embrace.
It is devastating but also liberating to be able to finally say that out loud.
The hopes that once comforted me are gone. My heart that once convinced me to fight for us is now quiet. I have no tears left to cry. Because I now know why our story ended the way it did. It was all we were ever destined to experience. What we had was all we ever needed from each other. What we shared was enough to help us learn one of life’s most valuable lessons. That even though everything in life is temporary, it always happens for a reason.
And even though I am not quite sure what life has in store for me, I know that this is one of the many steps I have to take to heal myself and get to that place in life that I was always meant to find.
I am parting ways with you because it is for the best. I am letting go of you because I can no longer live relying on my hopes. I am distancing myself from you because it is finally time for me to move on with my life.
The truth is, we were never meant to be together. But we met for a reason.
A reason we have yet to discover.
So, go on. Continue your journey. Keep moving on. Explore what life has to offer.
I will do exactly the same.
Just know that, wherever life takes you, I will always carry you in my heart. I may be free from all the pain that resided in me for so long, but you will always remain a beautiful memory that will remind me of a much simpler time.