A failed relationship is heartbreaking to most people. Sometimes, the pain might take a different turn and break you into pieces mentally and emotionally. Demi Moore had gone through such a break down after her relationship with Ashton Kutcher. Looking back at the divorce that happened seven years ago, the Hollywood actress opened up about the dark phase in her life in her new memoir Inside Out.
“I lost me. I think the thing if I were to look back, I would say I blinded myself and I lost myself,” said Moore in an interview on Good Morning America, according to People. The actress revealed shocking details of her tumultuous relationship and marriage with Kutcher that goes back to 2003. Demi Moore was 41 years old when she met the then 25-year-old actor Ashton Kutcher. Having experienced an instant connection with each other, the two hit it off immediately.
“He was 25. I was 40. But I’m telling you: we couldn’t feel it. we were totally in sync, from our very first conversation… When I met Ashton it almost felt like a do-over, like I could just go back in time and experience what it was like to be young, with him – much more so than I’d ever been able to experience it when I was actually in my twenties,” wrote the Disclosure actress in the book. The duo did wait to go public with their relationship. They also did not give heed to people who criticized their 16-year age gap. Moore brushed off negative comments and called them “silly.” Ashton became close to Moore’s children Rumer, Scout, and Tallulah and established a bond with them. Soon Ashton popped the big question and the two were engaged.
In September 2005, the couple tied the knot in the presence of 100 guests. While Moore finally felt she had found her “soulmate,” the years ahead of them were difficult. Moore became pregnant with Kutcher’s child but six months into the pregnancy, she lost her child. Moore was devastated and that just became one among the many reasons that increased the gap between the couple. “I can’t even bring into words how lost, empty, desperate, confused [I was]. I really lost sight of everything that was right in front of me, which was the family I had. And I think that the weight that it put on Ashton, it’s kind of a natural thing to pull back, when somebody’s clinging too tight.” But even when she was in pain, Moore wanted to be the wife Kutcher wanted her to be. She decided to be the “cool” wife and said yes to his fantasies. She even broke her 20-year sobriety.
“I put him first, so when he expressed his fantasy of bringing a third person into our bed, I didn’t say no. I wanted to show him how great and fun I could be,” recalled Moore. But her efforts to have a threesome just for her husband was not favoring her relationship with him. Kutcher strayed away from the marriage and betrayed her trust. However, she says that he justified it. “Because we had brought in a third party into our relationship, Ashton said, that blurred the lines and, to some extent, justified what he’s done,” wrote Moore.
While she moved past the first betrayal, he cheated her again with a 21-year-old. Soon, that was the end of their relationship. After her marriage collapsed in 2011 her physical and mental health declined. She distanced herself from the people who loved her and weighed a mere 102 lbs. She struggled to cope up with the split for long. Despite all the hardships, she overcame the heartbreak a few years later.
Just like Moore’s 6-year relationship, sometimes marriages may not turn out to be what you might have expected. However, finding the strength to move on is important.